It's been a bad day.   Not a travesty, but a day of anxiety, overload of emotions, countless puffs from many a ciggies and all in all just a bleh.   Where the fuck has 2020 gone? How did we get from free world to lockdown and oppressions and wearing masks????  I  burnt my 2020 planner, close with my 2020 diary, because why the fuck, hey? Let's just write this year off as a mistake on a humanity scale and start fresh in 2021.   Funnily enough, I bought a $4 2021 diary. So there may be hope.   My beloved is struggling. Which  means that I am struggling, Seeing him in pain, no sleep, swelling joint agony, depression and all the things that entail chronic illness. I'm at a loss as to how to help him, I just sit and be with him and tell him every day that i will be by his side till the rest of my days.   At least 2020 has shown us this:  What actually is important in our life, What actually matters, like really really matters,   The latest model car o...
TRYING TO FIND THE BLISS IN THE MAYHEM OF EVERYDAY